Tuesday, May 4, 2010

My Integral Assessment

WOW!!! what I found most was that I need to revisit this many many times.... There are so many aspects of my life that need tweeking.
I found that the areas that are a source of difficulty are truly the psychospiritual ones involving my own self attitude. I know that as I begin preparations and planning for my wedding I need to be strong. I have a tendency to let people walk all over me and then find myslef brooding in silence about it later. I fear that I will not be able to control my emotions so I shut them down and do not stand up for my opinions then internlaize afterward and allow frustrations and remorse to trun to anger.....I have resolved that I am not going to let this cycle begin. I am ready for growth and development in this area. I will take time to reflect daily on the cycle and focus on the needs. the wants, and the balance between them, to determine what can be compromised and what I firmly need to have go my way. I recognize that not all has to be my way and allow others to offer insight and imput but not to the dissolution of my dreams.

3 comments:

  1. Shelley I too feel like the psychospiritual part of my life needs more development. Although I think of myself as a very spiritual person, I feel that in many ways I need to get stronger in this area in order to learn to deal with other areas of my life like letting go of past hurts. I too am a victum of letting people walk all over me, it is good you recognized this in yourself and have taken steps to change that. It is also a good thing when you can find your own false and admit them and began to work on them instead of continuing the cycle over and over. I think you are doing very good as far as admitting what areas you need to work on and doing just that.

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  2. Hi Shelly,
    I am in the same boat. I need some psychospiritual healing as well. Let me tell you...not standing up for yourself will definitely cause harm as you can already see. You need to stand up and feel good about yourself. Don't let people walk all over you because you will just turn into a mad person and you will find yourself holding grudges and being resentful. You definitely don't need that stress. When it comes to your wedding...you do things the way you want them done and you are the final say so. It's your day, it only comes once in a lifetime so make sure it's perfect. You don't want to think back and say 'if only it was like this'...it's not a nice feeling. Remember...happiness makes you healthy so keep on being happy. =)

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  3. I think achieving a subtle mind is a lifelong process, just like exercising, will not be easy but as we implement it into our everyday lives, it will be easier as each day goes by.

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